behave ur modifuckation

Ilang tao na rin ang nagsabi sa akin na mataray daw ako at suplado. At first, deadma lang ako sa mga sa mga side comments na iyon dahil hindi naman nila ako aabutan ng isang kilong bigas kung ngingitian ko sila! Inisip ko na lang na lang na hindi ko rin naman sila inaapi or tinatapakan. As long as wala akong ginawang masama sa kanila eh problema na nila kung anong nais nilang ipukol sa akin!

Pero bothered ako sa isang bagong lipat sa harap ng tinitirhan ko. Dahil bagong lipat sya, hindi ko pa sya nakakausap dahil hanggang gate lang naman ako lagi pag nagsusunog ako ng baga ko. Besides, hindi ako agad nagtitiwala sa mga strangers kaya its not a big deal kung hindi ko man sya kikibuin. But i have nothing against her. Aloof ako dahil hindi ko sya kilala and besides hindi requirement ang pakikipagkaibigan sa kanya. Sya ang dapat makisama at hindi ako!

Sa twing nagyoyosi ako sa harap ng gate ay tanaw nya ako sa bintana ng bahay nya. Ako naman si greta na deadma lang everytime na titingin sya sa akin dahil nga hindi ko sya kilala. Nalaman ko na lang sa kapitbahay one day na nagsumbong na pala si gaga sa kanila dahil tinatarayan ko raw ang hampaslupa (hayop na yun)! Kaya naman isang beses nung magka salubong kami, pinatikim ko sya ng aking not-so-congenial nature at unfriendly advices.

This is not the first and definitely not the last.
Nangyari na rin sa akin ang mga ganitong sitwasyon throughout my existence. Marami na rin ang nagsabing mataray ako at suplado. Pero wala akong pakialam dahil panlabas na kaanyuan lamang minsan ang nakikita nila sa akin. Hindi ko kasalanan kung bakit pinanganak akong maganda! Pero sana man lang bago sila manghusga dapat muna nilang tingnan ang kaibuturan ng aking puso (chooss) at hindi lang ang aking pisikal na kagandahan, katarayan at ka seksihan!

Alam kong pagbubuhat na ito ng "house & lot" pero nais ko lang ibahagi ang mga maganda at hindi magandang komento sa akin ng ilan kong kaibigan mula sa prendster.

jeff.........hmmmmmm...i juz get tongue tied when ever i hear his name. he is one of the most wonderful persons i hav ever met.. i will always be blessed to have known this guy. hehehe. he is brilliant, and he writes with passion. as an editor-in-chief, he deserves great medals and awards.. but you know what?? he doesn't ever feel arrogant with his gifts.. he is down to earth, that is why we have great chemistry working together. we talk about anything under the sun. he is very goodlooking. everbody loves jeffklein so to speak!!!yeah. i miss our constant chats about lovelife and real stuff.. our mouths are two of the noisiest in campus before.. hahaha.. when he's not in the mood, he just shuts up but he will listen to whatever my mouth blurts out. he is so caring and his special someone will be so lucky to have him. he's so sophisticated and he has the smart stride i can't mimic, grrrhhhh.. labs u.. plzz tkecre.. miss yaahhhhhhhhhhhhhh.. mmmmmmmmmmwahhhhhhhhh

JeffKLEIN.. one of the names i couldnt forget in my college years.. At first, i dont like him because i find him very strict and once he will look at you.. youll fell like ice melting.. it really takes one to know one.. my impression was wrong.. He has this strong attitude.. Very funny sometimes.. He was our Editor in chief in our school paper.. We became close friends when we joined the debating club.. i forgot to say he is really intelligent.. (char) and very straight forward.. I miss this friend of mine.. sooooooo much.. he is a very happy person..i miss your eyebrows goin up and down.. hahaha.. and very committed to his responsibility.. im glad weve crossed path.. youve been a part of me jeff... i miss our other friend too.. (Gerard)- the singer... Sumalangit Na Wa... hehehe.. Take care Jeff im just a text away when u need me.. Yaw lng financial ha kay yabo na ang kaban... hehehe Love you friend.. mwah.. Godbless..

Jeff, a friend whom I considered one of the brilliant minded person. He is good in giving advice, knows me so well, and has a heart to offer for everyone especially his friends. Those who doesn't know him, could probably say he is strict and picky. Hmmm, I guess its half true. I surely would give my commentary on that, coz Ive known him eversince. I missed his company, and I never had a dull moment together with him. I am proud for all what he attained right now. He just deserves everything he've got! God bless you, Jeff! Hope to see yah soon. :)

 

After few days of contemplation, naisipan kong gawin ang behaviour modification sa sarili ko. Hindi naman ako apektado sa mga negative comments na iyon. Bothered lang ako na baka in the near future eh makasama sya sa imahe ko bilang geisha (lol). Pero nagback-out ang aking mind. Masyado na akong matanda para gawin ang theraping iyon. At wala akong dapat patunayan at baguhin sa aking sarili just to please anybody. If i'll do, baka magkaroon ako ng multiple personality disorder!

Again, hindi natin kelangang patunayan sa ibang tao na mabuti o masama tayo.
Ang pinaka importante sa lahat ay magpakatotoo lamang tayo sa ating sarili.

We can generate love and hate, pero makakatulog pa rin tayong nakatihaya!

And that's what i exactly did!